Lost against fate?

Here I stand, looking back at life and I cannot join any dots. I have no clue about what happened and why it happened. I wonder how many more dots are needed to make the path. I will, however, keep moving. Everything I've been doing seems to have crashed in a split second. I cannot see what I have gained from my hardwork. Maybe I didn't try hard enough. Maybe I need to follow a separate path. I can feel a transition. I am unaware about whether its a positive one or not. I am dying of anxiety. I know I'll be fine, the question is when?