Showing posts with label worlds. Show all posts
Showing posts with label worlds. Show all posts

Thursday, November 27, 2008

What the hell! Now what!

The God's have finally blessed me with a "day-with-no-work" day at office today! What do I do when I'm doing nothing? I blog. Yet, all's nice.
A question has been bothering me since two days. "What is the right way to live?" Damn! Why do I think so much? There have been times in my life (many of late) when I feel afaraid to choose the right thing. I can see this ideal life with ideal people and everything rosy but I'm scared to choose it. Why? Do I doubt myself? Do I have a low self esteem? Do I not trust my own decisions? :(
I have three worlds. My world-world A. A new world-world B and a world which marks the differences between the two worlds-world C. The third world is inside my head, the other two are tangible(I guess!). I'm happy in both of A and B. I am, trust me! C is responsible to map A to B which is a mammoth task to do. That's what scares me I guess. Now I'm here, and then in a split of a second there, and eventually either nowhere or everywhere! Phew!
It's not that important I guess, and I'm often told "don't think so much" but I needed to get it out of my system and puke it onto this virtual paper!

P.S. : At a time like this when Mumbai is at the gunpoint of terror my social awareness wouldn't allow me to blog w/o making a reference to that. Well, I wish I could do something about it, but a minute, can I do something about it even now?