I always thought it was easy to express what I felt within in words, untill today. It's strange how happiness and grief cannot live together in a moment. It's strange how a happy guy cannot identify the grief of another inspite of being in it himself just moments back. Today as I stand alone in the crowd, before the gushing waves sweeping my beliefs with the loose sand on its shore into it's depths, I feel empty inside. I can never explain what I am feeling. It's large yet invisible, intangible. It's strange how the plea of one heart cannot reach another. I don't think big or deep. I've always lived a life believing that love can win anything. Giving someone your time is the most valuable thing you can give, because it's a part of your life that you can never get back. If that doesn't change a heart I wonder what can. I don't intend to win the world, I don't want to be rich, powerful or beautiful. I just want to be happy. Iwant to be able to laugh, love and live! I want to be me. The me, itself, has changed now I guess.
The moon is trying to cradle my tired mind but in vain! Initially I wanted my answers. I fought and wrestled to make it there, now however, like a wounded knight surrendering to his last sleep, I surrender. I don't think any answer can alleviate my pain now. I don't need medicine, I need release. I'll never get it. Everyone moves on and so will I but the scar will make me uglier in the reflection of my self image. A "positive" mind would consider me weak. I only smile. I was one of those some time back. It's a long walk through a desert. It's hot. These cracks in life are like huge weights in coarse bags tied around your waiste. It becomes difficult to walk with each additional bag. One day we die of fatigue. I'm not giving up but I'm not trying.
Take me with you waves, into the depths of the treasure you guard day and night. Take me with you stars, high above from where I can look down on my life and laugh. Take me with you wind, to your destination which no one knows of and I can hide there forever.